I am so convinced that our civilization is being top-down engineered (bottom-up accepted) into collapse, that I have (spontaneously, not by choice) developed a 'catastrophizing' mind-set.
For example, I woke this morning and the wi-fi signal was absent; so my immediate conclusion was that the global internet had been sabotaged. I was quite surprised when a reboot fixed the problem.
The other day, I went out and there were no cars visible on a usually-busy road; and I simply assumed that there had been a nuclear warning and everybody had sheltered indoors. I felt quite causal and fatalistic about this prospect - just a shoulder shrug and some regret that I would die alone and without a change to think things through; but the possibility seemed almost everyday.
And then just a few moments later; the traffic lights somewhere went green - and a wave of cars hove into view... as usual.
I'm actually quite happy to think this way, because it helps in - almost effortlessly - resisting many of the recurrent (and manipulative) Project Fear campaigns to which we are subject in England these days.
It's not because I regard catastrophically-bad futures as unlikely or exaggerated (although the real threats do not overlap with the fake ones which get pushed on us); in contrast, I continue to be surprised at the delays in their emergence.
...Although my understanding is that the longer the delay, the faster and more comprehensive the collapse will be, since we are progressively damaging our civilizational resilience. For instance, we are much, Much weaker than a year ago - because of sanctions; and that was on top of the purposive and chronic damage of the sexual revolution, 'sustainable/ Green', birdemic-peck, and antiracism/ mass immigration.
In material terms there is no way out; the only possible solutions are in the spiritual realm - yet there seems to be extremely little interest in this - so far as I can judge. Nearly all public discourse proceeds on an assumption that there is nothing new or different now than in the past.
Nearly all public discourse is framed by the assumption that the scope of concern is this biological life and the assumed balance of pleasure versus pain in various persons and groups. What is worth thinking, saying and doing is evaluated on this 'hedonic mortal' basis, only.
So, it is natural that - because my own perspective is so different - I should find myself continuously at odds with The World.
Including this continual expectation of imminent disaster which has such absurd consequences... until it doesn't!