I sometimes wonder how many other people have experience of pure existential freedom; a recognition of oneself 'standing before' reality, and choosing how to regard it.
I suppose that such an experience is not universal, and used to be much rarer than it is now. Now, I suspect that such an experience is almost forced-upon people at some point, or often - but the response to it is extremely varied.
Existential freedom brings a recognition that - upon our choice - hinges much else; because knowing reality requires something from us, requires our 'participation' - otherwise outside-us is meaningless chaos.
From our freedom, which comes from our conscious selfhood; is where we recognize divine creation as a reality - and as a possibility.
It seems to me that it is at this moment of experiencing freedom, that we make the primary decision; which is either to join-with the nature and purposes of pre-existing divine creation - or not.
Among those who choose to take the side of divine creation; it is (or should be, I would say) from the situation of existential freedom that they decide how to ally with the divine, how to set-about our lives, what attitudes and assumptions are required.
Some decide they want to hand-back the ticket of freedom, and of consciousness that enables it: these experience freedom only to reject it.
In other words; the prime and final act of freedom may be to live as-if there is no freedom; as if freedom does not exist, or is impossible.
Others make a choice - and then forget that they have chosen! - and tell themselves there was no choice, that the choice was compelled, that there was only one 'rational' choice...
Yet, in freedom there is the experience of knowing that we - alone, as individuals - have the power to reject divine creation. We can each, successfully, defy God; in the sense of rejecting and working against God.
We have the power to seek other goals, to make alliances out-with divine creation - or against God.
We can even 'go it alone' - choose to make our own knowledge, meaning purpose - unshared: be God to our-self.
It boils down to love: the capacity for love, the desire to make love fundamental.
In knowing freedom, we know that divine creation derives-from love - creation is itself the manifestation of love. Thus to participate in divine creation entails living by love.
Without love, or in opposition to it, creation is experienced as alien, intrusive; is not wanted.
So Much is - or should be - decided from this experience of existential freedom!